[ there's a pause, because he's actually surprised by the last bit. he knows stiles has dealt with werewolves plenty, but he also knows he's a slightly more hideous type of werewolf and he tried to tear stiles to pieces. ]
Sure. Yeah, I guess. You're still welcome to come over and read the journal, obviously.
I think it's an Alpha thing. Which is not where my expertise lies, but I have a bargain with Derek where he has to answer my questions with more than surly silence, so maybe I'll ask him.
Hey, it's fine. I told you you were welcome, it's my bad for not telling you the situation had... changed.
[ that's an easy response, because that's being nice and playing grown-up. the second part's a little more personal, and it's difficult to confront it in words. ]
It happened because I was trying to help my friend. And he's alive, so - it was worth it. [ because if awful things are going to happen, and they will no matter what, so long as he can justify there being a reason behind them... it's false comfort, but it beats nothing. ]
[ he says it easily and confidently, but a second later: ]
Maybe. Or at least they were, I'm not sure - okay, so no, I have no idea now. But with non-purebreds, definitely yes. I knew a guy who named his wolf, actually.
[ it's almost a joke, but there's a somber edge to it; knew in the most past-tense way possible. ]
[ somehow stiles didn't realize that. he knew josh transformed in the way scott didn't, but the thought that he couldn't do the claws-yellow-eyes thing whenever is bemusing. but didn't it make him stronger? faster? more capable of eavesdropping? ]
It doesn't interfere with your, uh, like the rest of the month, at all?
[ he could lie. there's no reason he needs to be honest about this, particularly not with stiles. but it feels weirdly intrusive to say he can't when he can, so- ]
It didn't the first time.
[ which could easily imply it shouldn't this time, but the tone's entirely wrong for that. ]
voice. / auggielock. / careful or i'll write you something you'll regret
[ a slight tone of pity in his voice. man, he's so worried about you, why are you the worst grown-up. even derek manages to look after himself ok most of the time. ]
[ you're the dude who copes by writing all the info into a journal, he wants to point out. and that's a technique he's familiar with. he'd do it, to get the answers to his multitude of questions, so maybe it's a doubly good thing that josh didn't scratch him. ]
Whatever. You should still join the pack. It's not... like I thought it'd be. I mean, do I look subjugated by Derek's Alpha dominance? Eurgh.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
voice. / auggielock.
Sure. Yeah, I guess. You're still welcome to come over and read the journal, obviously.
voice. / auggielock.
[ he swallows, throat clicking. ]
I mean, you seriously wolf out, huh. The full Monty. I've only ever seen Peter do that. Uh, transformation-wise, not... mm.
voice. / auggielock.
Yes, I seriously wolf out. I wouldn't really recommend it, apparently humans weren't built to efficiently transform into canines.
[ extremely dry, but he can't help curiosity slipping in a second later. ]
But it is possible? Where you're from.
voice. / auggielock.
[ a beat, and. ]
Sorry. By the way.
voice. / auggielock.
Yes, you should do that.
[ and a pause on his end, but it's more for confusion. ]
Why are you sorry?
voice. / auggielock.
[ translation from teenager: he feels bad about just gallumphing into josh's room like he's scott or something. ]
And because you obviously didn't wanna be a werewolf anymore, and now you are again.
voice. / auggielock.
Hey, it's fine. I told you you were welcome, it's my bad for not telling you the situation had... changed.
[ that's an easy response, because that's being nice and playing grown-up. the second part's a little more personal, and it's difficult to confront it in words. ]
It happened because I was trying to help my friend. And he's alive, so - it was worth it. [ because if awful things are going to happen, and they will no matter what, so long as he can justify there being a reason behind them... it's false comfort, but it beats nothing. ]
voice. / auggielock.
You know, if you joined the pack, Derek would tell you stuff.
[ it worked for him. ]
voice. / auggielock.
[ his voice tenses up no matter how much he tries to play it cool; it's instinctive at this point. ]
Our wolves are different, anyway. Knowing more about how his works probably wouldn't help me deal with mine.
voice. / auggielock. / boomerangs.
voice. / auggielock. / murders
Yes, probably. Theirs aren't even separate, are they? The wolf and the - them.
voice. / auggielock. / bleeds on.
voice. / auggielock. / gross
[ he says it easily and confidently, but a second later: ]
Maybe. Or at least they were, I'm not sure - okay, so no, I have no idea now. But with non-purebreds, definitely yes. I knew a guy who named his wolf, actually.
[ it's almost a joke, but there's a somber edge to it; knew in the most past-tense way possible. ]
voice. / auggielock. / licks it off.
[ somehow stiles didn't realize that. he knew josh transformed in the way scott didn't, but the thought that he couldn't do the claws-yellow-eyes thing whenever is bemusing. but didn't it make him stronger? faster? more capable of eavesdropping? ]
It doesn't interfere with your, uh, like the rest of the month, at all?
voice. / auggielock. / but this isn't my musebox
It didn't the first time.
[ which could easily imply it shouldn't this time, but the tone's entirely wrong for that. ]
voice. / auggielock. / careful or i'll write you something you'll regret
[ a slight tone of pity in his voice. man, he's so worried about you, why are you the worst grown-up. even derek manages to look after himself ok most of the time. ]
voice. / auggielock. / not possible
The day or two before the shift, it used to amp up my senses. I think this time it's a more long-term upgrade.
[ said dryly, because frankly being able to smell things on this ship is not a blessing. ]
It's still nothing like Derek's. No super cool Wolfman look, no claws, just - smell and hearing, mostly.
[ 'super cool' used here in a very not complimentary manner, of course. ]
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.
[ which is mostly true; it's hardly focused enough for that. ]
Honestly, it's mostly just annoying. But not half as annoying as the smell thing, obviously.
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.
But no, not everybody eavesdrops. Just because you can doesn't mean you should.
voice. / auggielock.
[ you're the dude who copes by writing all the info into a journal, he wants to point out. and that's a technique he's familiar with. he'd do it, to get the answers to his multitude of questions, so maybe it's a doubly good thing that josh didn't scratch him. ]
Whatever. You should still join the pack. It's not... like I thought it'd be. I mean, do I look subjugated by Derek's Alpha dominance? Eurgh.
voice. / auggielock.
that and he probably would eavesdrop if he had a good reason. ]
I don't do packs.
[ it's still calm, but there's a drastic switch from the conversational tone of before; heavy, resolved. ]
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.
[ which isn't meant as a threat so much as just the truth; it never ends well. ]
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.
voice. / auggielock.