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JOSH LEVISON

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I'm sorry did you just say you turned into a coyote

[instincts]

only for 8 years

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Oh ok that makes it completely normal then

you're a wereCOYOTE??

[instincts]

yes

[ check your wolf privilege, motherfucker. ]

but like 3 full moons now since i've been human again if that was yr question and it sucks

[growling]

[ thAT ISN'T EVEN A THING ]

Sorry, you mean you were a coyote for 8 years and you've only been human for a few weeks?

[ that..... might explain some things... ]

[instincts]

A few months.

[ wow big difference ok. ]

1/2

[growling]

[ oh yes sorry much better ]

I guess that makes sense.

[growling]

[ Because you're rude, get it. Which is kind of rude also, so in an attempt at bonding or something: ]

I was stuck as a wolf. Just for three months, but the adjustment afterwards was rough.

[instincts]

[ josh just fucking earned himself the time of day. ]

the worst part is always being cold.

and algebra

[growling]

[ Malia what are you. ]

Yeah, that algebra's pretty rough.

[ And after a short delay: ]

It's difficult to remember what you were like. What humans are like, generally. How to act.

But it's like riding a bike, right? It'll come back to you.

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most the time I feel like I don't know where to start.

and then i just get annoyed because people are actingl ike i should know this but i don't and it makes me want to rip out their throats

[growling]

Well not actually ripping out throats is a pretty good start. Pat yourself on the back for that one.

[ Joke, but also 500% serious. He knows the feeling. ]

But seriously, I'm probably not the best person to give advice on this. So far the best fix I've found is to avoid people entirely.

[instincts]

is that why you only text people and dont let anyone near you on full moons

[growling]

I've tried it the other way. Letting people in, asking for help. Keeping people away from me until I fix it is the best option.

[ So yes, just with more dramatic phrasing. ]

[instincts]

you could have just said yes

[growling]

[ oh my god karen ]

Yes.

[instincts]

how long ago were you stuck as a wolf?

[growling]

A while. Almost half a year, assuming this ship has any respect for a monthly calendar.

But it's complicated. It shouldn't be as difficult for you.

[ Because apparently meditation is a viable solution for Derek's pack, go figure. ]

[instincts]

why?

what do you do on the full mono do you just lock yrself up and call it good

[growling]

I used to go to the woods. But yeah, I lock myself up. There isn't an alternative. Chains won't work and focus doesn't matter.

I have more of a chance the rest of the month, but there's no guarantee it won't happen anyway. Yours is mostly tied to the full moon, right?

[instincts]

sort of

if i get stressed out or mad or something it comes out other times. i've got enough control to change when i want to like the others but sometimes my claws still come out on accident or i cant focus my senses or something

[growling]

But you aren't completely unsafe all the time, right? Just once a month. Or does the lack of focus + claws usually come with uncontrollable aggression.

[ crass period joke here tbh ]

[instincts]

it comes after the agression not before

[growling]

But turning doesn't make it worse? You're still you, just angry?

[instincts]

unless it's the full moon. Then im not me

it's not like that for you?